Feelings Come and Go, But Feelings Do Come Back

Just these few months,
I miss you so much in this sudden
Before that it was a wrong, i didn't know that i need you so badly

I'm afraid that you might think that im just fooling around
or will i hurt you again,
Because I'm afraid that i will hurt you again...
This few months, i've been spending my time thinking of the past,
How & Why
And finally i got the answer
It's just because of my childish-ness
I not suppose to couple with you if i could predict the future
That i will hurt you so deeply and finally i regret on what i did more deeply.
Everything was a wrong from the start.

I really loved you, but i'm really sorry for what i did to u
No matter what happened.
You are still treating me so good,
Pampers me that much
What could i do to repay you,

I'm afraid that you will keep faking smile to me
And makes me think that everything is alright
But it's not an alright at all.

So everything will remain just the same,
single life
single life
I will think of it all over again if i learned to manage my feelings well

When will i get mature enough?
GROW UP!!!!

Can you let me say the last Sorry?

On 15th November of 2009, I knew someone thats interesting, funny, caring, mysterious, and someone that i didn't know i would hurt him so badly.
You became a close friend for me just in 2 days time.
Just like we have a non-stop topic.
I know that u were always worrying that someday there will be no topic for us to chat with.
But i told you that no matter how u are still a best friend for me in my heart,
A topic is no big deal

I have to admit that u stolen my heart once,
but I've promise myself,
Not to let feelings take over me easily.
I keep it as a secret
I just need to see that whether i really love you, i really can make it an eternal love
But i failed.
for me, You're always like a caring brother that would always be there for me.
You treat me just so good, so good that i am afraid that someday I'll be hurting someone that treated me so good.
You say you loved me, I can see that;
If i say i loved you, I can't see that.
I know that someday i will tell you the truth, and i know u knew that someday i will tell you the truth

I think you are very special.
We didn't even met but you made me feel that we knew each other for years.
You told me on 15th of November that you knew a girl.
From that day start, your life had changed.
From the day you broke up with your ex until now. You feel sad and lonely
You never shared every sadness in your heart to anyone.
Even your phone never ring before.
You said you really need somebody that cares about you, that could always accompany you.

I'm glad that i could bring a change to your life.
I want you to be happy.

But at 17th January 2010
I've hurt somebody that cares bout me the most.
I must tell u this as early as i could.
This is the only way to not let you fall and hurt deeply.

Although I promised you that i will never say sorry to you.
But just let me tell you the last sorry.
I'm sorry, truly sorry...

Sick on christmas =(

I feel sick,
I look sick,
I'm acting like I'm sick
AND I AM SICK!

Sorry guys if I didn't reply your message(s),
Reason is my mobile is out of credit,
ad I'm lazy to go and reload for it, I got no energy

So, I'm sorry everyone,
I will reply you guys a.s.a.p. once I have done reloading.

Hopefully i could fully recover by the day our school reopen
See you guys next year

Merry Christmas
ADIOS~

What Should I do (You're Beautiful OST)

I found a song from the k-drama i mentioned earlier,
It's called "What should I do"
And I love it,
You guys should listen to this song for abit, that's nice and meaningful

Park Da Yae version:
Park Da Yae - What Should I Do [You're Beautiful OST].mp3

Jang Geun Suk version:
Jang Geun Suk - What Should I Do [You're Beautiful OST].mp3

Both of them sounds great

A.N. Jell Hwaiting! xD

New fever

Title: 미남이시네요 / You’re Beautiful
Chinese Title : 原来是美男啊
Also known as: You’re Handsome, A.N.JELL
Genre: Romance, comedy
Episodes: 16
Broadcast Network: SBS
Broadcast period: 2009-Oct-07 to 2009-Nov-26
Air time: Wednesday & Thursday 21:55

Synopsis

Tae Kyung and On Yu are in search of a new member for their idol group, A.N.JELL. However, Mi Nam suffers an injury at the last moment. So Mi Nyu, his twin sister, is asked to step in for her brother. The rest of the drama follows the behind-the-scenes life of an idol group.

Cast

Jang Geun Suk as Hwang Tae Kyung
Park Shin Hye Go Mi Nam (Male) / Go Mi Nyu (Female)
Lee Hong Ki as Kang On Yu / Jeremy
Jung Yong Hwa as Kang Shin Woo

Extended cast

UEE as Yoo He Yi
Bae Geu Rin as Sa Yu Ri (Fan club president)
Kim In Kwon as Ma Hoon Yi (Mi Nam’s manager)
Choi Ran as Choi Mi Ja (Mi Nam & Mi Nyu’s aunt)
Kim Sung Ryung as Mo Hwa Ran
Jung Chan as President Ahn
Choi Soo Eun as Wang Kko Di
Tae Hwang as staff
Yoo Seung Ho (cameo, ep9)

Production Credits

Director: Hong Sung Chang
Screenwriter: Hong Jung Eun & Hong Mi Ran

Okay, They are way too hawt!

Jang Geun Suk as Hwang Tae Kyung

I know he looks gay in this movie BUT it is just the hairstyle that make u think that way, but whatever he is HAWT.

And and and
Jung Yong Hwa as Kang Shin Woo



And of course
Lee Hong Ki from FT Island as Kang On Yu / Jeremy



HONGKI IN BLONDE! WOOHOO

A.N. JELL

My house, HAUNTED?

Oh gosh, i don't want any of these anymore!

I was playing my bro's psp in my room, from 12 to 2 midnight, while gossiping with my sisters.
The light was turned off as usual, this is our custom.

"Goodnight ngo ngo, goodnight ngoi ngoi"
"Goodnight ngo ngo, goodnight ehek"
"Goodnight ehek, goodnight ngoi ngoi"
(Weird huh? In any event, this is also our custom, xD)

After wishing goodnight,
I rolled everywhere on my bed but i just couldn't get into sleep,
OH GOD I HATE THIS!

"li? are you asleep?"
*snoring*
"jie jie how bout u"
*talking in dream*
Hopeless

But never mind, there's still something that can cure my boredness.
PSP, playing final fantasy dissidia,
I was planning not to sleep this night since tomorrow is a weekend,
But something came up on my mind,
" skin generation time is to sleep at between 11.oop.m. - 1.oo a.m," xD
better sleep now, look at the clock : it's 4.18 a.m

Now here's where the post was about
After placing that psp on my table, i went to bed,
My back was facing the door, and i was facing the other side,
when i just about to sleep,
i heard a sound,
*door opening, slowly.....*
until now i still remember that sound,
it was so freaking me out!
I thought i just locked the door? I've do that every night
and after that sound,
i can feel my back was so damn cold,
even I've had my blanket on it
I don't even dare to open my eyes,
I just act like I'm sleeping so maybe that "unknown dirty things" won't disturb me
My eyes are so tired
About 10 minutes later,
I turn around slowly, slowly,
My door was closed,
It's like it never been opened before, even it is still locked
I was trying to make a conclusion that maybe i was dreaming?
but it just doesn't make sense, THAT'S AIN"T A DREAM!

The day after that night
i told my family all about me and i opened every door of my house to listen that if that sound was the sound i heard yesterday night,
i didn't know if its fortunately or unfortunately the only door that sounds like the sound I've heard yesterday was the door of my room.

My house, HAUNTED? or maybe my room? or could it be that door of my room...
That time i was scared, but now i was happy,
u know what? finally i get to experience something "creepy",
i had never ever believe that ghosts exist
but now, i do.

Will the World End in 2012?

2012 is the end of the world: True or False?

I personally believe it's false, so false, although i might be wrong,

Appreciate the days u could spend with everyone around you,
Think about ways to save the Earth,

Maybe it's not the time for us to think when or will the world end in 2012,
So go ahead and take the steps!